Transvestia

clothes because somebody is coming. Anyone who comes to his apartment knows and accepts his TVism. Girl friends? (GGs I mean)...several... and each one of them knows about his "girl-within". Relatives? He left his home when he was in his early teens and put a whole continent between him and his parents, brothers and sisters. Job? Also carefully chosen TV-wise. He started as an employee in a ladies' garment store and today he owns the shop. His employees, five GGs all know that he is a transvestite. In other words, he has created his own society, a society where he finds the accpetance that allows him to live without frustration and fear.

The problem stems from the fact that most TVs insist on olunging into a ready-made society in which they are unable to do any manipulating to satisfy their inner urges. The TV wants to be like everybody else around him, knowing perfectly well that HE IS NOT like everyone else. So he creates for himself a world of appearances, a world of make-believe which, paradoxically, is a world he DOES NOT LIKE. He forces his personality into the conventional mold (like shov- ing your foot into a tight shoe) and sentences hims- self to a lifetime of aching feet, To be a success- ful transvestite one must manipulate, connive and plan so that one can end up in a world selected to one's own measurements. The pity of it all is that most of us know nothing of the girl-within when we are in a position to start planning and manipulating. When we find out it is usually rather late and we are already caught up in the conventional kind of life; job-wise, wife, children and friends. But even so, there are a few TVs who are managing rather nicely, the extra apartment, the periodical "business trips", the extra income that the wife knows nothing about, the TV friends, and even the non-TV friends. The shame of it all in this case is the constant lying and therefore the growing guilt.

But enough of philosophising... let's gossip! The case of "J" has all tongues wagging on the East-

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